I said I wouldn't cry over you anymore. The horrible pain you gave my was excruciating. I saved myself for you, made a promise to you and for what. Nothing. I don't regret not being with you anymore. In fact being without you, even being alone is better than having stayed with with you. Why from day one did you belittle me find fault with all that I was and did. I wasn't perfect. I'm a hard women to live with. Stubborn, proud and a bit wild. You tried to crush my spirit damn you! Saying my family and I were uneducated country people. Do you remember you said you hadn't been attracted to me for at least 6 yrs. You went to the doctor for Viagra because you couldn't get it up for me. You tried one and still said it didn't work.

Funny, you could use it to masturbate and have sex with someone else. Remember how before I knew you were with someone else I asked you why you wouldn't touch me and you said it was because I was fat and didn't have pretty enough underwear, you said, you guess you would have sex with me but you acted as though I asked you to do the most disgusting thing in the would. So I said forget it and you got angry. You said you didn't want to have sex with me but you would. Wow, so nice of you to offer me a pity fuck. I refused. Which in the end is what you wanted,
The best thing I ever did was leave you. of course the only reason you didn't want me too was for financial stability.

One thing I haven't learned and one would think I should have, is how to pick men. Most have told me I'm to fat, or they just want sex. I haven't been able to find anyone who is willing to take a chance on all of me.