I think I am falling and I don't want to. I'm trying so hard to hold on to my stubborn way of thinking but it's like a faulty foundation and crumbles beneath me. I know what started the cracks but why did you have to say what you did. Are you lying? In my mind you have to be. There have been so few with the same sentiment that you voiced. I'm so confused. I almost cried when you told me. I walked around numb not knowing what to think. Not really even able to digest what was said it was such a foreign concept. I guess I have no choice but to find out what's going on. I'm so scared though. I'm afraid of acceptance and of rejection they both hold their own brand of pain.